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[secretagentmoof]

First night's dreams in Chicago included crying, my bicycle rusting and falling apart as I was riding it home, and collapsing and vomiting on the front lawn; I'd say I have some issues with moving back to my parents' place in Chicago. My stomach (physically) hurts from the in-dream retching, too.

I wasn't my usual self, either, but a blonde-grey haired woman (whose eyes turned pink after I barfed) so that's extra-unusual.

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[spz]

some issues. Also, old tools no longer working like they used to, and yourself changing who you are (fast enough to notice), possibly?

(good luck with all that, in any case)

[secretagentmoof]

Lots of identity issues: strongly considering abandoning the sysadmin biz due to changes in the field (all cloud management, all containerization, devops half-assedness and instability, actively discouraging getting to know what exactly is going on with the systems), no real future plans, not even much in the way of aspirations, figuring out how to portray myself to my (somewhat conservative) parents and (much less conservative) siblings. I am fairly directionless right now.